18 Days and Counting

August 24th is our official 'Back to School' date.
Why couldn't it be the 31st is beyond me, but the closer it gets the more excited I get!

Since the beginning of July I've been sneaking into the practice rooms and going over my scales and technique. Still haven't fixed my mouth to sing any Arias yet from Vaccai. That is the one area that I am so terrified to restart.

I love arias. I do. Though when it's time for me to practice singing them...my confidence just goes left so damn quickly! Sigh.

Not to be cocky, but I know I can sing. I have the scholarships and slack jaws of folks when I do sing to remind me. I just get so hard on myself because I want to do so well every time I sing. I either lose pitch, technique, or both.

This Fall will mark a full circle and full year that I have been a Voice music major. I still do not feel as though I am where I should be and it is having an effect on me. When registering for classes I decided not to enroll for Music Theory or Sight Singing and Ear Training. I just don't feel ready to take either one of them on right now..

Maybe once I have a tutor and we begin going over the areas I'm weakest in I won't feel that way anymore. Though if I don't - then this will be my last semester.

I know I say that each semester, but this time I really mean it. I've had 3 professors point out my 'learning curve' issue in some form of fashion and after the last one I really got to thinking..

My professor was talking about famous jazz singers and what he said has really resonated with me.
The most famous singers didn't have crazy impressive ranges - some only had an octave range. But what they could do within that octave was what drew folks in and where they really stood out.

Maybe I'm not meant to receive my degree in music. That doesn't mean that I can't still make music my career. This summer I have had so much fun discovering and learning all the other options I could take that would incorporate music! Also, I've been working on my YouTube channel to share with ya'll more about me and my experiences.

That could explain why I am still so excited! I know that if things don't work out academically that I still have options. Ya'll just don't KNOW how GOOD that feels!  

Yeah, I'm a bit nervous - even scared. But I'm still counting the days until Fall starts so that I can continue on down this road. Because I know that no matter what happens..it's gonna be an awesome trip!

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